heart.

i've put you guys threw a lot of shit and vice versa. but you'll always have a place in my heart. a place that's untouchable and unchangeable. i love you all.

(this isn't me "singling anyone out" but this is me writing a blog about me for me.)

-You’re my best friend. Nothing’s ever going to change that. You know me inside and you’re quite possibly the only person I can genuinely say that about. You know my weaknesses and my strengths. You know what puts me on the brink of insanity and you know what makes my day life. I couldn’t imagine a day without you. You’ve taught me so much about just letting go and just having faith and hope. Because sometime’s that’s all you’ve got to live for. Thank you from the depths of my soul and of my heart.
-Thank you for being my partner in crime. Throughout these past years you’ve managed to make me smile and to make me cry. You’re my best friend because you encourage me to be me. You keep me from losing my head in physics and you keep me from making mistakes with boys. You turn my tears of sadness into sweat from dancing with ryan conferito (sp? and bahaha) thank you listening to my emotionally prone bantering of non-sense. You always know how to keep me sane and keep me going. But most of all you always know how to keep me sdsu free (;
-Even though we’re probably more so acquaintances than friends nowadays. I still consider you as one of the very few people I trust and maybe I’m foolish and naïve and completely irrational to even put so much faith in you. But I can’t really help it. I can’t even get myself to just let go, when there’s surely more reasons to than to hold on. I guess you can call it idiocracy that or I’m just completely blind to reality. But regardless, thank you for opening my eyes.
-Sometimes you make me want to punch you in the face, and sometimes you make me want to slap some knowledge into you. But in the past few year I’ve learned that doing that would be devoiding you from yourself. I’ve learned to accept you for you and to be grateful to have met someone as complex as you. No matter how many months we go on without talking I couldn’t quite possibly imagine you out of my life. You’ve taught me so much about friendships and what entails with the words trust and shit. Surprisingly, you’ve kept me going these past few years. I hope to always have you in my life.
-So I’m glad that you’ve become much more than my best friend’s boyfriend and into a friend. And not just any friend, but a good friend. You’ve listened to my petty grievances and to my desperate desires of sanity within you know what context. Your advice is genuine and you managed to not want to punch me in the face for all my amazing racist jokes perpetuated upon your jewish self. And I applaud you for that, really I do. It’s astounding the amount of tolerance you have for me and obnoxious laughter.
-So one might say our friendship is weak and lacks substance, but I know it’s much more than that. I know that even when we go months without talking to each you’ll always be there when I need you most. You’ve been holding my head up and keeping my spirit high when I was in the bottom of the bottom. You’ve been able to handle of my bullshit. Thank you.
-I really miss you. I really do. I wish you’d actually answer my phone calls and would somehow manage to put me as somewhat of a priority. Even if it was just once a month. It’d be nice to have you to talk to. I really need you back as my best friend.
-You’re my little spirited friend. As “flamboyantly” homosexual as that sounds, you are. You never ceased to make me frown. When I’m around you, you make mall life’s aches and pains disappear for the time being. You make (: , so don’t let anyone make you : ( NO ONE.
-You just might be the only boy that can make me smile even when I’m drenched in tears. The things you say when you say them are simply perfect. Thank you for always caring and for always keeping me grounded. Thank you for keeping my hand held and my body embraced. Thank you.