i feel like i'm losing everyone that matters the most. i feel like i'm losing it. i haven't felt this alone in a while. it just makes me question what i did, or what didn't i do. am i being a shitty friend, a shitty person? yeah, i do enjoy being alone over being with other people, but sometimes bieng alone gets terribly lonely. i'd like company once in awhile.

i feel like breaking down, crying and pouring my heart out.
and at this point, i have absolutely no one to confide to, not even this dumb blog.






...and i'm scared...