the past has passed.

cheesy.



this year has been crazy, both good and bad, i suppose.
i've been recently thinking what if i didn't dp? what if i was still in it 'til in the end? where would i be now? would i loose all the friendships i've learned to adore and cherish? or would i be able to handle both? chances are i'd loose friendships i always feared of loosing. but sometimes i feel like, even though i did dp, i still lost them anyways. and i hate to be that person that is constantly reflecting on the past, but it's too hard to forget all the moments that kept me alive with all those people that kept me going. i was happy, and i still am today. just with everything that's going on, all the chaos, all the stress, it's harder to see the positives--to see the light. it's so easy to focus on all the negatives, that we overlook everything else. why can't we all just smile and suck it up?


this past year has been pretty epic. i've learned so much about relationships, both friendly and intimate. i've had those lows and those highs, those moments where i felt infinite and untouchable and moments that i felt my sanity slipping away. but after all that's happened, i wouldn't take any of it back. i did so much shit i thought i would regret and be shameful of, but fuck it, it's a part of growing up. it's a part of evolving into the person i ultimately want to be.

well, this blog is kind of gay, but i figured maybe i should get back to this instead of trying to avoid it, life is going at a slow pace right now, a lot of resting and a lot of reflecting.


<-a tribute to old memories.